Sunday, August 28, 2011
I made a Discovery today
One day i will face adversity so preposterous that those who came before could not even conceive of them. but its thanks to the combined efforts of Arthur Kilkelly and Jocelyn Macleod that i can face them. and thanks to them i know i will pull through, no matter how difficult it seems at the time my family is always there for me, and that in it self is enough to keep me going
Saturday, August 20, 2011
Death cab for cutie show at the Greek
So despite being , very tight on cash i decided to splurge and see the Death Cab For Cutie. All in all it probably cost me about 60$ I am sure i can sell a few games to make up the loss.
And it was totally worth it.
The more i think about it, the more I realize Material wealth isn't what is going to make you happy in the long run, when you have a chance to see something you like on the stage or on the screen, those moments are worth more than any collection. and as much as it would be nice to have a fancy home, I would rather a modest home and a chance to travel and experience new and fun things every year, but hey to each their own right?
anyhow, back to the concert. It was very cool, I love death Cabs sound, despite the fact that something melancholy is probably not the best idea right now, but still it put me in a good place, so it was worth it.
The set up was something Impressive. they had 5 12 foot LED panels behind the band, that were used to play some sceensaver esq videos, but they all fit with the songs so I cant complain.
The light set up was also very impressive. because all these LED panels were surrounded with LED moving lights. and because the panels were slatted they had lights behind them to make for some cool effects. For the big numbers the screens were very active, then when they slowed things down for songs like "I will follow you in to the dark" it became very simple. the lights closed in and brought everything down to that pace.
I think overall the design was very successful. It worked well with the band, and made the show Absolutely fucking spectacular.
anyhow ,here are some pics and a vid, excuse the shitty quality it was taken on my phone.
And it was totally worth it.
The more i think about it, the more I realize Material wealth isn't what is going to make you happy in the long run, when you have a chance to see something you like on the stage or on the screen, those moments are worth more than any collection. and as much as it would be nice to have a fancy home, I would rather a modest home and a chance to travel and experience new and fun things every year, but hey to each their own right?
anyhow, back to the concert. It was very cool, I love death Cabs sound, despite the fact that something melancholy is probably not the best idea right now, but still it put me in a good place, so it was worth it.
The set up was something Impressive. they had 5 12 foot LED panels behind the band, that were used to play some sceensaver esq videos, but they all fit with the songs so I cant complain.
The light set up was also very impressive. because all these LED panels were surrounded with LED moving lights. and because the panels were slatted they had lights behind them to make for some cool effects. For the big numbers the screens were very active, then when they slowed things down for songs like "I will follow you in to the dark" it became very simple. the lights closed in and brought everything down to that pace.
I think overall the design was very successful. It worked well with the band, and made the show Absolutely fucking spectacular.
anyhow ,here are some pics and a vid, excuse the shitty quality it was taken on my phone.
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
It has been rough this past month
Hey I made this post, it was super long and meloncholy, but for some reason when I post in chrome it wont actualy post to my blog.
either way.
This past month Has been super rough, what with the breakup and all that. I have to move, and there are so many other problems. the worst part is, she didnt even give me a chance to discuss the reasons with her. its like it was over in her mind long before she even botthered to contact me.
So basicly I had to watch my whole life fall apart and loose the woman I love, and there was nothing I could do to fix it.
worst feeling in the world, and I would not wish that on anyone.
I have been working on the two Cal rep plays though and its been a bit of a boon to get my mind off things, but it is still very difficult to concentrate, as my mind is constantly asking questions that i cant answer and the only person that can is up in the mountains and doesn't have a phone that works, So i guess I am forced to wait until she returns from Camp, and try to get some answers then, and I am sure even if i tried to contact her right now, it would probably make things worse. so all i can do is sit and wait. Stew in my thoughts and hope for the best.
thats is what my month has been like.
ah well by the time she gets back and if she wants to talk to me, school will be back up and rolling so I will have ample distractions to keep me from falling in to deeper despair.
Then Oppenhiemer will get in to full swing, and then it will be october. and then I will get in to Louis slotin sonnata then it will be thanksgiving, and the semester will be almost over.
If i keep myself distracted by work, this semester will breeze on by. and I will probably be much better off.
anyhow, here is some pics of the set. its going to be very cool. but sadly there is water in the set so i cant put lights under it (which would have been awesome!)
either way.
This past month Has been super rough, what with the breakup and all that. I have to move, and there are so many other problems. the worst part is, she didnt even give me a chance to discuss the reasons with her. its like it was over in her mind long before she even botthered to contact me.
So basicly I had to watch my whole life fall apart and loose the woman I love, and there was nothing I could do to fix it.
worst feeling in the world, and I would not wish that on anyone.
I have been working on the two Cal rep plays though and its been a bit of a boon to get my mind off things, but it is still very difficult to concentrate, as my mind is constantly asking questions that i cant answer and the only person that can is up in the mountains and doesn't have a phone that works, So i guess I am forced to wait until she returns from Camp, and try to get some answers then, and I am sure even if i tried to contact her right now, it would probably make things worse. so all i can do is sit and wait. Stew in my thoughts and hope for the best.
thats is what my month has been like.
ah well by the time she gets back and if she wants to talk to me, school will be back up and rolling so I will have ample distractions to keep me from falling in to deeper despair.
Then Oppenhiemer will get in to full swing, and then it will be october. and then I will get in to Louis slotin sonnata then it will be thanksgiving, and the semester will be almost over.
If i keep myself distracted by work, this semester will breeze on by. and I will probably be much better off.
Monday, August 1, 2011
A recap of the past two years.
So just to let you all know what I am going through.
2010 was an awesome year. I got to go to norway, I designed some really cool shows Including the Drag show. I made a whole bunch of new friends. and Got to go to vegas, where I discovered what I truly want to focus on as a designer, and for a career (Hint its not lighting design). I got to teach a class, and I met the woman of my dreams. she was cute smart, funny, down to earth, and she was as in love with me as I was with her. Everything was looking good, life had a glow to it, and I could not be defeated.
2011, has not been as kind to me. so to start of my desktop got fried, our bathroom flooded, right when i was moving in. then when school started if was put on too many production assignments. which i knew would drastically affect my school performance. but despite my requests I could not get out of them. then my bike got stolen, Then my dad had a heart attack, then my mom was forced to move (which caused some stupid family fights), then my Uncle had a heart attack. this was all in the first 4 months. at the end of the semester, I was surprised with a final assignment, that i wasn't able to complete mainly due to the all the work i had to put in on the productions. after the semester ended, we had another flood, and got overcharged on a car rental. Throughout this whole time. Holly and I were together and Happy we were helping each other through the tough times we were both having.(I dont think i would have survived the semester if it wasnt for her.)
Then summer rolls around. I have a job in Colorado. she has a job at a summer camp in big bear.
we go our separate ways, but its only for a few months, and we both know soon we will be back in each-others arms and happy.
after a month in Colorado my contract is up, but I haven't heard from Holly in 2 weeks. I get on a plane to go back to Montreal to visit friends and family. the flight takes almost 24 hours.
after being in Montreal i get the We need to talk text message from Holly.
however after sending that message i don't hear from her. so I go ahead with my plan and rent the car, perhaps we can talk up at her camp.
as I am on my way up to the camp i get a call from her saying I shouldn't have rented the car. and i cant talk to her. but she will be on fb chat later to explain everything.
so basically
Out of the Blue she decided I was making her fat and lazy and its not going to work because she is too active to date a fat and lazy guy(seriously that's the closest i got to an explanation)
although we never actually talked.
So i wasted 200$ on a rental, and now i need to find a new place to live, before September. unfortunately, i don't get my loan until September. so I am probably going to be homeless for most of September.
and to make matters worse, well end of September is when my show opens, so for the most part of sept, i am not even going to have enough time to look for a place. and i cant afford
rent/ deposit/ moving expenses and eating, so looking for a place right now seems kind of pointless. so essentially, i will be couch surfing until October. you know. mid semester. when my next show is about to begin...
so basically, things are going to suck until the end of November, unless some sort of divine intervention occurs i will probably be homeless and couch surfing for 2 months.
And that is 2011 for me
I look forward to 2012, because Seriously i dont think it could get much worse.
anyhow this was just a rant. Im pretty depressed right now, and i find writing about it at least makes me feel a little better.
2010 was an awesome year. I got to go to norway, I designed some really cool shows Including the Drag show. I made a whole bunch of new friends. and Got to go to vegas, where I discovered what I truly want to focus on as a designer, and for a career (Hint its not lighting design). I got to teach a class, and I met the woman of my dreams. she was cute smart, funny, down to earth, and she was as in love with me as I was with her. Everything was looking good, life had a glow to it, and I could not be defeated.
2011, has not been as kind to me. so to start of my desktop got fried, our bathroom flooded, right when i was moving in. then when school started if was put on too many production assignments. which i knew would drastically affect my school performance. but despite my requests I could not get out of them. then my bike got stolen, Then my dad had a heart attack, then my mom was forced to move (which caused some stupid family fights), then my Uncle had a heart attack. this was all in the first 4 months. at the end of the semester, I was surprised with a final assignment, that i wasn't able to complete mainly due to the all the work i had to put in on the productions. after the semester ended, we had another flood, and got overcharged on a car rental. Throughout this whole time. Holly and I were together and Happy we were helping each other through the tough times we were both having.(I dont think i would have survived the semester if it wasnt for her.)
Then summer rolls around. I have a job in Colorado. she has a job at a summer camp in big bear.
we go our separate ways, but its only for a few months, and we both know soon we will be back in each-others arms and happy.
after a month in Colorado my contract is up, but I haven't heard from Holly in 2 weeks. I get on a plane to go back to Montreal to visit friends and family. the flight takes almost 24 hours.
after being in Montreal i get the We need to talk text message from Holly.
however after sending that message i don't hear from her. so I go ahead with my plan and rent the car, perhaps we can talk up at her camp.
as I am on my way up to the camp i get a call from her saying I shouldn't have rented the car. and i cant talk to her. but she will be on fb chat later to explain everything.
so basically
Out of the Blue she decided I was making her fat and lazy and its not going to work because she is too active to date a fat and lazy guy(seriously that's the closest i got to an explanation)
although we never actually talked.
So i wasted 200$ on a rental, and now i need to find a new place to live, before September. unfortunately, i don't get my loan until September. so I am probably going to be homeless for most of September.
and to make matters worse, well end of September is when my show opens, so for the most part of sept, i am not even going to have enough time to look for a place. and i cant afford
rent/ deposit/ moving expenses and eating, so looking for a place right now seems kind of pointless. so essentially, i will be couch surfing until October. you know. mid semester. when my next show is about to begin...
so basically, things are going to suck until the end of November, unless some sort of divine intervention occurs i will probably be homeless and couch surfing for 2 months.
And that is 2011 for me
I look forward to 2012, because Seriously i dont think it could get much worse.
anyhow this was just a rant. Im pretty depressed right now, and i find writing about it at least makes me feel a little better.
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